Scripture: For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:13-14a)
A few years ago, I woke up to find myself staring at myself in the mirror. As I looked, I had a negative thought or comment for every body part I could identify.
Urg, my face is too round. I probably put on another 2-3 pounds since my last time on the scale.
Urg, look at my hair. It’s a mess. I need a new hairstylist but it will be the same problem again, how will I manage it? It would be so much easier if I had long hair.
Urg, look at my thighs, way too big… And I’m sure because they stick together.
You get the picture. Everything in me seemed flawed and in great need of “intervention”. However, it wasn’t just the physical imperfections that I saw when I looked in the mirror. I saw my messiness. When I looked in the mirror, I saw a broken woman. I saw someone who had lost herself, who didn’t know who she was, and who lost the girl inside of her and could not seem to find her back. Who was I? The question kept jumping and skipping in my mind. Then all I could hear back was:
You are broken and you will never be whole.
You are a failure.
You are ordinary. There is nothing special about you. How are you any different from other people? God made a mistake with you.
Ouch, talk about negative thoughts and most importantly lies that I could not see. I went on about my day, going to work allowing these thoughts to set in. I walked around defeated, believing the lies that the enemy planted in my mind. I felt like I’d reach a new low in my life. So I did the one thing I do well…I rushed to the washroom and cried. Tears flowed like a river. Oh yes, this gall is a crier. In the middle of my tears, in a dark place that’s when I heard His voice:
“My Child, why are you letting the enemy tear you down? Have you forgotten how much I love you and how precious you are to me? Have you forgotten that you are fearfully and wonderfully made? Kesh, I did not make a mistake with you. You are not ordinary. You are extraordinary and created for an extraordinary purpose. You are not a failure. Just think back on how far you’ve come and where you were just earlier this year. You are my child and you are more than enough. When I see you, I see you covered in Jesus’s righteousness, perfect, and made in my own image. Get up, dry your tears, and wash your face. Remember whose you are.”
In that moment of brokenness, God met me and reminded me of one of the most important truths there is: I am who He says I am. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am enough. Suddenly, being reminded of this truth brought me peace and comfort. I wasn’t this ordinary, not good for nothing woman the enemy had painted me out to be. I was special. At that moment, God reminded me that my identity did not come from the enemy and it did not even come from what I thought about myself. But it comes solely from who God says that I am.
Friend, don’t allow the enemy to trick you into believing his lies. Don’t reinforce his lies in your mind. What the enemy says about you does not matter because he is only after one thing: to kill, steal, and destroy you. Instead of believing the lies, choose to believe what God says about you. And my friend, He says you are precious, so precious that He gave His only begotten son to die for you (John 3.16). God says that He knew you even before you were in your mother’s womb. Who else then can better tell you who you are than your Creator?
Walk in the light of this truth today and repeat to yourself:
“I am more than enough. I am God’s masterpiece. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. And because God said it, it is so and I believe it.”
Genesis 2:26 KJV
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